Connect.
Connect with yourself, your love and your light.
I love growing, supporting, and connecting with myself. When I would get into places of discomfort I became really good at getting myself back out; I did the work. When times weren’t going the way that I planned, that’s when my practice of connecting inward would really kick in. I loved the place of routinely creating space to do what I love and connect with who I truly am. It is in the times when my body and soul would be fed up with my external circumstances that I would stop and go into self-love mode. I would enjoy waking up each morning, fully surrendering in order to embrace my assignments.
When my energy would start to kick up again, things would shift back into the flow and I would feel at ease. The more peace I felt, the more I let go of my connected practice. It felt like it did what I needed it to do and its perceived purpose was served… until something rocked me and I would come crawling back into it again.
I was in a reverse fairweather relationship with myself; I would be there, fully connected, when times were bad then ditch my inner guiding system the moment things felt good again. The mentors that I would reach out to when I was feeling distressed would suddenly slip my mind when I felt an inkling of peace. The snooze button and coffee runs quickly overturned the mornings of meditation. My external world was flowing and so I let my connected world off the hook.
The real truth is, the only reason my external world was flowing was because of my vibrating energy due to being so filled with love and connection to myself. Our external experiences are a result of our internal experiences, but I thought that if my external world was running smoothly it was ok if I felt a little disconnected to my inner source of happiness. That wasn’t going to work, and was going to be an endless cycle of disconnection, freaking out and running to my inner self for guidance.
This cycle didn’t just stop there; it was a pattern running parallel with different areas of my life. If I felt sick, I would religiously have a green juice and take all of my vitamins, then the moment I felt healthy I would ditch them. But just as my disconnectedness came, so did my health and other issues. I only chose a certain way to live when I needed it.
The more you connect with the true you, the more you want to make this connection a part of your life, every single day. You want to cherish the relationship you have with yourself and be supportive of you during those times when you’re at ease just as much as those times when you really need a helping hand. When you stay connected, you won’t feel those ups and downs and desperate calls for some self-love ignition. It will be something that is a part of you, something that you love and something that you look forward to every day all the way down to in every moment.
Find a practice that you love, choose something that you would love to do no matter what your outer-world looks like, weather that’s connecting with yourself through nature, journaling, meditation or playing a sport. If it’s something that you love when you’re feeling uneasy it just as well should be something you love when you’re living in your bliss. Love doesn’t know good or bad, love is just love. Often we look to connect to our self because we have disconnected, but if we remain connected with the space that we find in our time of connecting inward, we will find that this connectedness can withstand any circumstance.
